So I’m
finishing up week eight of my internship (but they call me a grad assistant
which helps with my ego a little) and I’m going to share with you what I've learned thus far. Actually I’m going to start to share with you what I
know I shouldn't do in the “professional” world. It’s been a minute (or four
years if you want to be a dick about it) since I've held a professional role so
I’m a little rusty. Actually I’m down right terrible when it comes to
appropriateness.
For example
as many would probably know simply by being normal that probably talking about
your lack of contraceptive use is inappropriate conversation with college
students around. Or making a joke about the age of certain college students to
coaches is more than likely a subject I should avoid in locker rooms.
There are
a few more but there’s no need for me to give any more evidence of my behavior
in case charges are brought up. I’m kidding, but seriously if anyone hears
anything a heads up would be greatly appreciated. To be completely honest this
whole role as a grad assistant isn’t working out quite as I would have liked
(and yes I have been bitching about it a little bit, sorry for ruining lunch
yesterday Mom). I think maybe I’ve been grossly inappropriately at times to
help deal with the disappointment of not getting out what I was hoping with the
intern-excuse me I mean grad assistantship.
No that’s
a complete lie; I think I’m just an inappropriate guy at times.
But I have
learned some things during these past eight weeks that I don’t think I would
have if it wasn’t for my BMD and my third or fourth or fifth (I lost count)
attempt to start over. Prior to my diagnosis I was so busy moving forward in my
career I totally missed on what was all around me. I mean how in the hell else
could you explain how I lived in the damn Rocky Mountains (powder bra powder)
and never learned to ski? Or what about while living in Atlanta I never tried
grits (ok that one isn’t as good as the first one but you get the point).
I was so
concentrated on getting to the next step in life that I was missing out on
actually living mine in a way. I think I have learned that lesson in the past
couple months because despite my frustrations with paying Xavier University to
run Wittenberg University’s concession stands I’m still enjoying my time back
on campus. I’m only there for ten weeks and the old self absorbed me (I’m still
a little bit though) would have rushed through my time trying to get my degree
and move back to Atlanta to finally try grits (yet missing out on once again
what was just right around me).
But
actually I’ve got to meet some awesome people and even promote my book; the Abnormal
Psychology class loved it (except for that little bitch in the back—I kid, I
kid). I’m still working on my patience
with this BMD (that’s more than likely a lifelong battle) but I think I’ve
learned to appreciate what’s around me a lot more. While I’m inappropriate probably
more often than not I think I’m learning to embrace what’s going on around me
more rather than focusing just on what’s coming next.
In a crazy
way being manic has actually helped me slow down. Instead of rushing through my
life trying to get to the next step to achieve whatever milestone “goal” I have
I’ve slowed down and am meeting great new people, appreciating the little
things more and enjoying being just part of it all. Not too bad of an
internship after all I guess, I just need to hold on to it for two more weeks
(no more bad sex jokes will probably help that effort).
Since many of my manic experiences
involve music I've decided to add random music videos to the blog for my
enjoyment and your inconvenience. Enjoy!
Coming Correct,
d01roK
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