Thursday, February 4, 2010

Life full of mania with a dash of humor and a slice of normality (those are the secret ingredients) Vol 2 Issue 5

I’ve never really considered myself a gamer (although in the past two years I’ve purchased both a Xbox 360 and then a Wii; I was manic during both these purchasing decisions mind you) but I am addicted to the claw. Whether I’m a patron at Dave & Busters, the AMC on the levee, any Steak ‘n Shake or any other establishment blessed enough to have one of these machines you will always be able to find me on a claw. I understand that these games are designed for children but they are like coffee to yuppies with me (I have to play or I feel like I won’t be accepted). I’ve recently been enjoying looking at myself as an oddity of the rare for this reason among a few others that you get the privilege to learn about.

I find comfort in knowing that I am “normal” when it comes to BMD cases (call it my “I don’t want to be the weird manic guy” syndrome) but I’m slowly realizing that just isn’t how I am. For instance during most episodes Manics will have an increase sex drive but I for some reason totally lose my libido (which is good and bad all at the same time, really confusing but then really fun when it comes back). During this time I as well lose my eyesight. While I was in Denver I was having trouble reading road signs so I got my eyes checked and naturally they came back nearly perfect. This totally stumped me but I am not one to question doctors (well optometrists at least) and then during episode deuce I needed magnifying lens for the MRI scan but when I came back a week later not manic my eyes were fine (the only time the technician had ever seen that, point).

The next two get a little odd so try and stay with me (time to chase that rabbit down the holes). It is fairly common for BMD’s to have vivid and almost too realistic dreams. If I can make it through the night only waking up once or twice from these dreams it’s been a good night. However every once in awhile I’ll dream I’m manic again (tick, tick, tick…mind-blow). I can feel when my mania is coming on so I know exactly what to expect, the odd part is when I’m dreaming and I have these feelings. Let me tell you it is about as fun as your first childhood snipe hunt at night (if you’ve never gone snipe hunting let me know and I’ll arrange a hunt). I told El Doc about this and he had never heard of that before so I was a little prideful but a little scared as well for being the oddity of the rare.

The last one deals with the reaction my skin has when I’m manic. My feet and especially my hands usually tingle, become red, burn, and feel rough/dry. The sensitivity on the top of my feet and hands intensifies and that usually leads my mind down a rabbit hole dealing with crucifixion (I told you it was odd). The next symptom is similar to my hands and feet but only appeared during this last episode and it dealt with some discoloration and skin bumbs in a sensistive area that is known as the…

Siren Screams
Confetti Everywhere
Balloons dropping from the sky
Music blaring

” Yahoo! This is your celebration
Yahoo! This is your celebration
Celebrate good times, come on! (Let's celebrate)
Celebrate good times, come on! (Let's celebrate)
There's a party goin' on right here
A celebration to last throughout the years
So bring your good times, and your laughter too
We gonna celebrate your party with you
Come on now
Let's all celebrate and have a good time
We gonna celebrate and have a good time”

Announcer: “Congratulations to Emily Oscarson!” She is .e4’s 10th follower and has won the grand prize giveaway. This includes a random item from d01roK’s apartment that he will randomly select now. Congrats Emily and thanks for following!”

Wow this comes as I complete surprise to me so let me see what I have laying around.

Perfect, I’ve got a giant stuffed boxing glove that I won at Dave & Busters on a giant claw machine (how odd that that all worked out that way.) Seeing how Emily is in my class tonight I can give her her prize then (I’m really starting to like being the oddity of the rare).

Since many of my manic experiences involve music I’ve decided to add random music videos to the blog for my enjoyment and your inconvenience. Enjoy!

Coming Correct,

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